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Name: Aubrey
Birthday: 4/29/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: I like to snowboard, I also like to write short fiction stories. I play video games of every kind. I like hanging out with my friends and just talking about anything and everything. I love every type of music and movies.
Expertise: Role Playing, Sleeping, Eating, Writing, and Sitting.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
MSN: Knight_of_Light@go.com
Yahoo:  aubrey_gilmer
Member Since:
9/13/2004
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| Well, well, well. . . Two years later it seems I finally decide to update this thing. I really don't have much to say. My mind is jammed full of things. . .just none of it seems like anything worth putting. Though I will say that everyday I learn more and more about Kelsey Hardman. Since we have gotten back together she has faced every problem with a bold face. Her parents, her friends, hell we might as well go ahead and say the world, wanted to kill her, but she just ran right into it as if she didn't even care. I really do love this girl. She makes my life worth living. After Georgia I thought happiness came in white powder or little blue pills or needles. Every girl since her was just a time killer. I told them what I had to tell them, just to get what I wanted. That was before her. When she and I first got together it was world shattering. God himself could not have kept us apart. Then from out of no where, all of those feelings that I felt when I was with Georgia came from behind and hit me like a sack of bricks. Then I started looking at my dad, and then his dad, and so on and so forth. It seemed like every good thing a gilmer had also had a bad habit of getting ripped away from him. So in my infinite wisdom started to do every stupid thing in the book to push her as far away from me as possible, and it worked. Though every time I did I went back to feeling the same horrible way I had been feeling, so I would crawl back to her. This process repeated more times than either of us care to admit. We each dated other people, and I can't speak for her, but I know for myself, that even when in another relationship she was always on my mind. I saw her everywhere I went. . .I even saw her in my dreams. . .I finally got up my nerves to try and talk to her and this is where she suprised me again by talking to me. We talked for a while and then we got back together. Today I have never been happier. I guess this is easier for me to say over xanga. . .I dunno. I asked her to marry me, and she said yes. I'm done running from the only great thing in my life. She is just fantastic. I couldn't see myself living my life to the end of days with anyone else. . . and Lord knows I've tried living without her. It can not be done. I know today that she is in fact everywhere. She is everywhere I look, she's even inside of me. This girl owns my heart, and I wouldn't ever intrust it to anyone else because I know that she will take care of it. I have to go to training soon to Military Police School, for two months. I rather not. Just because I don't want to leave her, but I know that she will be here with open arms waiting for me when I get back. I now truly understand what love is. I know now what it means to miss someone. I've just said all this for myself. All these other little girls can't give me what this woman has. There is not one shadow of doubt about the matter. I am in love with Kelsey Hardman. Always and Forever.
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| Okay no, but for real. This will be my first real update since i have been back home. I will start out by saying I will NOT be fixing that dumb chatterbox, its way to much work for some one as lazy as I. I have been home for what two weeks now? Yeah I think thats about right. I am so far behind in school and band it isnt even funny. I am so pissed at myself in band cause I havent marched in the show in two weeks because I dont know any of my sets in the first two songs and it sucks. After meeting the new director Mr. Mac I can say hands down he is teh coolest. In two weeks I HAVE been able to do many things, such as chillin with the boys who of which i missed very much. People have been asking me the same question over and over again,"how does it feel to be back home?" And to get the God's honest truth out. I HATE being here, I cant wait to go back next summer, because here I have to face things I dont know how to deal with, but at least there I knew what i was doing and felt like I belonged. I feel so out of place here it isnt even funny. Im hoping this will fade, but i dont have high hopes. I'm really not happy being here, now dont go and get me wrong I love all you guys to death, but I am sick of feeling like a square trying to go into a circle hole. I dunno. I'm really sorry for being such a downer, perhaps it would be best i just didnt post this? Maybe. You know. . .me and one of my buddies were talking one day and he told me " Gilmer, when you go home. Everything you had, its not gonna be there. Your going to go back to something that LOOKS like what you left but everything will be different to you, your girl, your family, your friends, they will all be different. . " I called him a liar and soon after shoved him backwards causing him to trip over some one else, but the point is he was right... I got back and sure enough, the sight of Sam made me sick and I just didnt feel right being with her, so we split. My family I STILL think are robots replaced by the FBI. . . and as far as my friends go. . .well. . . I rather not go into that one just yet but trust me, there is a change. I dunno where the root of this problem is just yet but I am hoping to find it soon. Boy that sound is getting annoying, anywho. . .I sit here at camerons and ignore the text from my dad telling me to come home. I have nothing of real importance to post here. . .just mindless rabble to keep you all from living your lives for a brief time I guess. I think the whole point of this post was to just inform the masses that I am alive and well. . . or alive anyway. You know whats really gonna piss me off though. . .this post looks really big now. . but when I post it, it wont look half this size, sigh. That makes me sad. Well I guess this is enough for one night. . .later! kill all humans. . . | | |
| You know. . .the only reason this thing isnt shut down is i just really like my picture, lol. | | |
| For any of you who read my comments on my last post, yes she indeed did have to text me and tell me to update, and to no suprise TWO days after I finally get around to doing as I am told, lol. Though I still have no idea what to put up on this thing. . .I'm at trey's getting ready to go and play some good ole D&D with Joel, Sam, Trey, and Brent. Gonna be fun ^_^ Gah Im a dork. . anywho. . .I think this counts as a update, later! | | |
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